After the whole job market process, I have a much better understand to the academia, and I regret for not trying to understand it earlier.
I still love doing research, but I know I won't be happy. I will be forced to work on research topics that I don't like just because it is easier to publish. I will have a lot of depression because of the tenure clock. My wife has to forgo her high paying job to go to a new place with me. What is worse is that after 6 years, I might not get the tenure and I have to move again. I am not from VHRM, my research will never be influential. I do research just because I have to do it. And I will earn very little, especially in European schools. Money is important, and I and tired of pretending it does not.
I already rejected some interview invitations, because right now I am clear that I do not want to stay in the academia. I still love doing research, but my interest to it has faded. My interest on it is not strong enough.
I just got a non-academic offer, which pays much more than what I will get from the academic jobs. I am very happy with it.