Thanks for your kind words. Having colleagues like you is what makes this job so rewarding.
Researchers tend to really like their research. Sounds like you're not cut out for this game.
I'm probably going to get fired too. I've worked hard, but it hasn't been enough. Some of my colleagues look at me like I'm a failure. They've wrapped up their entire identity in their publications. I guess I could have done the same and probably would have published with some success. But, I have other things that matter more to me. I see my colleagues who are so obsessed with their careers as kind of sad. None of them are going to win a Nobel, or change the world. And they are missing out on life. If they don't want to be nice to me that's their problem, not mine. I feel sad for them, actually.