It's OK OP. I'm a third year AP with already 5 pubs. I have two papers under review -- provided that one hits in the next 3 years, I'll get tenure, even if I produce nothing else in that time. But, b/c of this, I have nothing to work hard for. I wish I was in your shoes. Only if I was pushed would I know what I can accomplish.
Bros & broette, an excellent example of the "humblebrag"